I have so much time wasted, I just realized and its time for me to move on..But build another new confidence, make my self more stronger again day by day is the hardest things to do and I’m tired makin fake smile every single day to cover disappointment..Recently theres somethin hold my back and it become mountains of sadness..I’m going to say I’m completely okay but the fact is I’m not okay at all..

And things really went so bad for me tonite the moment I saw it and got cried all night cause I can’t stand to see it, theres a soft devil voice teasin inside my head said it could be you..Yeah things really sucks when your only able to stand watch and stay behind all the time waiting for someone who really love you come to the line and have a pity to choose!

I will found someone like you maybe?? Well I don’t want find someone like you who left cause I ain’t perfect..

But honestly, I’m really happy that she gave somethin that I can’t give to you after all those time..Its just a little envy which I can’t avoid and I’m hating my self for not being strong like I used to be..

When all the lights off and I’m covered by ash, no one will see cause I’m just an empty broken bulb..I’m thinkin why God so choosy and give too much test to be done and all I ask is only simple tiny things, I just wanna to be love by someone I love..If you really feel me inside my God, your the one who truly know my pain and how much I wounded..